I Wish

Yeah, so in case you don't know, I like to occasionally read through those gossip magazines. You [don't] know, 'M' and 'J-14'. I know. You're completely ashamed of me. Whatever. This has a point. The fact is, it's helped me realize how much people care about what random people are doing in their lives. It's helped me respect celebrities--especially underaged ones--for keeping their cool when there's a mob after them. At the same time, I am so ashamed of some of the majorly twisted secular influences the magazines have on ditzy young girls. Really, let's cheer Zac and Vanessa on for moving in together. Let's spray in front of the whole world how horribly bashed and flamed Miley Cyrus was by her ex.

All I hope is that most of that information is accurate. All of it, ideally. I imagine myself as some sort of celebrity looking at the cover of a magazine and reading the lies that the entire public now believes about me and I squirm inside. I'd learn to handle it--they all do, in their own way--but I'd never be happy about it. You lose a lot of freedom as a celebrity.

I know none of us like his music, but did you know Justin Bieber has to cancel a concert because a mob hurt one of his fangirls? Correction, a mob of fans rushed the stage and hurt someone whose only fault was being in the way at the time. Sorta makes me never want to go to a concert again. At least not one with fangirls.

I wish I had the ability to reach lots of people with my words. I wish there were a whole lot more people who followed this blog. I wish I knew for sure what I'm going to do with my life. I wish there wasn't still this desire within me to somehow, miraculously become a superstar. I wish I didn't realize that if I did, I would have just as many haters as Miley Cyrus and the others. Someone out there would think I'm a fake. Or a ditz. Or a bad musician.

I wish I were gentler. I wish I were harder to offend. I wish I didn't judge based on half-truths and incomplete knowledge. I wish I wasn't a hypocrite. I wish I prayed more often for those I despise. I wish I thought more of others. I wish I worked harder. I wish I believed in myself as much as all my friends seem to. But you know one thing I wouldn't change?

I wouldn't change one person out there. Not under my own power. I wouldn't asked any one of my friends to change, and I wouldn't ask my Lord and Father to change. THat would be bad.

"A gossip magazine made you think of all this?!?!?!?!"

Yes. Puts things into perspective, doesn't it?